just to..

September 27th, 2006 by fionna

It’s amazing how life revolves..
the things that occurs..
the good and the not so good

when love strikes
it’s just simply magical

funny to really see two people in love
their antics never fails to amuse me
the chemistry of it all
oh! so indescribable with mere plain words
ENGLISH! ahh what a limited language all on its own
does no one any good

it’s always more of a challenge when you have to deal with the not so good part of life…the part where you sometimes wish that it would all just fade away. But than again, life would be rather dull…no stories to tell…no matters to laugh about in the future…no lessons to learn…a dull roller-coaster of life that would be.
i’ll never forget the phrase when the butler asked Master Bruce, " Why do we fall, Master Bruce?" As Bruce slowly recalls what his dad taught him..the butler answered, "It’s so that we can learn to pick ourselves up." - Batman Begins - Profound indeed…

just to put my mind at ease…as i take it off from studying ‘Reactions to Illness’: Pharmacy Practice 1.

structure…organize…common-sense…the words fill my mind once again…the infamous words of Mr. David C.

coming back to my own thoughts…as the music floods the room…the heaviness of my eyelids are growing… a yawn…and the threshold of sleepiness has passed for now…

simply wonderful life is…the simplicity of it all…when you stop thinking about your troubles…when you put ‘ME’ out of the picture…it’s just marvellous…God is good. His loving kindness never fails to lift my spirits~

back again…to the lecture slides….my mind now dirfting back to what i am suppose to do….just a few more days…a few more days…

bloggin~

August 9th, 2006 by fionna

well…i’ll prolly really start doing it whn i’m not in m’sia….haha..pointless to blog now…life is runnin ….now whn i’m in scottie..and there’s nothing else except the sky and me…i’ll start doing this thing…haha

A gift for Mother’s Day

May 16th, 2006 by fionna

To all the mothers who are present here today and to those who are not. And as for the soon-to-be mothers and the mothers-wannabe, you might wanna reconsider after this..hehe

I would like to dedicate this piece to you, mothers. You were the ones who have loved unconditionally and who never knew how to keep track records of a child’s wrong doings. The ones who have given so much, the measure of it all would be insurmountable.

But most of all, this is written from my heart with my mother in mind. My mummy, this is especially for you.

Today I represent all the children giving you, mothers, our gratitude. Years have passed and yet I never did really or fully realize the greatness of having you in my life. I always knew that who I am today, you had a part in it, some how, some where… But I could not comprehend it; I could not fit you in. Just like a piece of puzzle, I knew that one day I would understand and then see the whole big picture. Finally my day has come, this is the year that I have truly matured and grown (not that I have not all these years!..hehe)

Something happened, it was through my own experience that I have felt a glimpse of what you went through all these years of bringing us up. Only than did it finally dawn on me, how great a mother’s love is…

All these while, I always look up to my dad. To me his attributes and quality were easy to spot. I wanted to have his good stuff and most of the time he always seemed wise in all his doings. =) However, it was hard for me to really admire my mum like I did for my dad. For I was young and unwise, I never saw it through till now.
Something happened, it really struck me, and revelation dawned on me. Of how great a mother’s love is.

You love unconditionally; you keep no track records of our wrongs; You gave expecting nothing in return; you sacrificed yet did not demand a reward.

Every day and night, you toiled with optimism to make this family work,
You worked hard to make things clean and tidy in the house
And to put the kids in order, not forgetting to cook each time making sure we have good food to eat.
Your work never stops; dad has office hours yet there was no such thing as ‘house hours’
You are always on call 24/7; even till when we are married and out of the house.

You would make sure that we get the best of everything and that the leftovers are meant for you Everyone brought their problems to you
Everyone expected from you
Yet you never did complained but you just listened to us
You knew when to listen and when to talk
You gave us your time even though you had hardly any left for yourself

So many times we broke your heart yet you always find a place in your shattered heart to love us Sometimes we never bother to mend it back but instead demanded more from you..
And you would selflessly give your fragile heart to us

But my mummy dearest, today on this very special day, I want you to know that I have grown to respect your qualities.
I have become wiser and finally understood and I want to be like you
To love others like you loved me
You symbolized the love Jesus had for us all
And that is one of the greatest gifts that God gave me…YOU
A physical and real experience of His love in my life through YOU

Sometimes we don’t say it as often as we should
But mummy, we do treasure and love you
And I truly admire you Your strength, perseverance and unrelenting prayers

Now I see why, they say that you have a heart of gold
Worth far more than any precious stones
For your love is priceless

Happy Mother’s Day my dearest mummy
I Love You

Written by,
Fionna WY Tan

i shud b sleepin

March 3rd, 2006 by fionna

being fioNNa as usual
i shud be sleepin but yet awake
sittin in front of my fav. comp
tryin to improve on my typin skills…hehe

perspective is yours alone
the way you view things is yours as well
everyone is entitled to your own opinion
that i agree
but why should we close up and refuse it all
without first taking a look at it all?

life is too short to hold everything
life is too long not to share it with someone
thought provoking it may be
to some yet to others into the dumb

politics we can never escape
part of life it seems to be
big or small
young or old
no one ever escape from it all

a diplomat?
just sticking to the principal of
when you dont have anything nice to say dont say
it sure keeps you out of trouble always

so why should i fall n repeat the mistake of many?
what’s the use of history?

numbers cant lie
statistics dont waver
see what you see before you
and yet the unseen remains true


Ask n U shall receive

October 18th, 2005 by fionna

ever heard of God?
ever heard of the One?
ever heard of Saviour?

it’s been said tht if you seek Him
He will reveal Himself to you
that God is real and merciful

someone told me tht God is love
someone told me tht God is love
and yet someone told me tht I can have this God
as my friend…as my father…as my guide
can it all be true?

now i know
for i have experince it
that God is good
His love and mercies endures forever

you can have it too
you just gotta ask


life as it is

September 29th, 2005 by fionna

what do you do
when it all box down?
when nuttin is fair anymore?

what do you do
when you’ve been cheated?
when you’ve been misjudge?

what do you do
when all is against you?
when nuttin goes right?

i’ll look up to the one above
who watches my every step


for i’ve been on both sides
life as it is…

i need strength when i’m on the losing end
i need mercy when i’m on the longer end
life as it is…

strength to get up once again
to fight against all odds

mercy to have another chance
to turn and live right

in the Almighty i trust
life as it is…
i am just a human after all

-for the love of the game-

September 24th, 2005 by fionna

In the midst of adrenaline
In the midst of dripping sweat

In the field of people
In the field of fame

Under the bright white lights
Under the heat of the game

Nuttin beats that
Havin a goal to aim for
Havin a dream to attain

Knowing where you’re headin
Knowing where you’re goin

But what do you do when your dreams starts to fade?
What do you do when nuttin goes your way?
What do you do when it all comes crushin down?
‘You reach out for one more dream…’ {Peter J. Daniels}

amidst

July 13th, 2005 by fionna

vacations are gone
studies are back
can’t wait to get back again
a life of routine as a student

holidays i will miss
chillin out i will be out
sleepin for 12hrs a day will certainly be noticeable
foolin around will definately be a fool

time to test against the waves once more
time to prove true once again
nothing is impossible for with God all things are possible
the everyday life is what i will compose..

learning to fly…

June 23rd, 2005 by fionna

time is ticking
all’s awaiting
to wait for the right wind
to soar on my wings

all are human
thus errors are common
no matter how great
no matter how small
it still prevails

falling down and getting up
not my name but Your name
forsaking all else
fame fortune and glory…

justice will You bring
humbleness instilled
compassion increased

i am learning to fly…

stand alone

June 8th, 2005 by fionna

deep within the cries of my head
the dull aching pain
it just never goes away…

the build up of hormones
the build up of emotions
oh! what is this all?

another phase of life
another chapter of a book

to grow up and learn
to fall down and learn

why must it all be so?
oh God of heaven and earth
where art thou?

in my deepest distress
you seemed to have vanished

oh how could it be..
that i’m born into such a time as this?

my head still aches away…
it just never goes away…

but on your word i stand
because you have never failed me

and this time would not make a difference
for the past have prove itself
you are always there

just like the stars in the sky…
even though i don’t see it at times
but yet it doens’t mean that the sky is starless tonight

take courage!
for all is not lost
eternity awaits
the day i see you face to face

spirit of the almighty
come to my distress i pray
for i can stand no longer alone
it was not meant to be
it was not meant to be

as it went past the hooting owl
the rooster crows once again
a brand new morning
a brand new day

your mercies are new every morning